Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Love
Love is the only chance of happiness you'll ever get in this life, and if you're gonna let a little thing like rejection stand in your way, then you might as well lay on the ground because people are gonna be walking all over you for the rest of your life.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Passion Play 2009
I haven't blogged in a long time. Many things have happened from the last time I posted a blog, to this point. Too much for me to even post.
I spent most of my spring break with the CYM rehearsing for the Passion play. This year I'm controlling Spotlight #4. A few of my friends are in the play again this year. I've met some new people and made some new friends as well.
Yesterday we got through our first performance. It went well. A lot of people came to watch. After the play was over; I saw a few friends that I haven't seen in since last year. We have another rehearsal on Tuesday and 2 more performances on Wednesday and Friday. I am excited about performing again.
I always enjoy helping out the CYM and the St. Catherine's church. It's always been a pleasure.
I spent most of my spring break with the CYM rehearsing for the Passion play. This year I'm controlling Spotlight #4. A few of my friends are in the play again this year. I've met some new people and made some new friends as well.
Yesterday we got through our first performance. It went well. A lot of people came to watch. After the play was over; I saw a few friends that I haven't seen in since last year. We have another rehearsal on Tuesday and 2 more performances on Wednesday and Friday. I am excited about performing again.
I always enjoy helping out the CYM and the St. Catherine's church. It's always been a pleasure.
Monday, March 16, 2009
7 Days, Nothing To Gain
Nothing really happens now-a-days. Especially when you're out of high school. I seem to attend more family get togethers than hang out with friends. Nothing wrong with that. I went to my little cousin's bday party at John's Incredible Pizza. That was fun.
Nothing exciting is happening this week. Its all school, and tomorrow I have to take the English exit exam. I hope I pass. I'm really not trying to take it again. All I can do after school this week is find time to jog. I haven't been jogging much lately because my Mom has been making me do all sorts of chores and tasks that really slow me down from some of my personal goals.
Nothing exciting is happening this week. Its all school, and tomorrow I have to take the English exit exam. I hope I pass. I'm really not trying to take it again. All I can do after school this week is find time to jog. I haven't been jogging much lately because my Mom has been making me do all sorts of chores and tasks that really slow me down from some of my personal goals.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Glorified
Well, today began pretty bad. Just some issues at home. =/
Today was my cousin's 13th bday. We had the families get together at my Grandma's house. The house was full. There was a shortage of chairs. lols. We all had hella good food and everyone was just hanging around the house talking.
I got to hang out with my cousin Nick. I haven't talked to him since New Years eve. We were going through some problems, but we resolved it today. I wouldn't hold a grudge against him. He's family, a second cousin. We hung out in the front porch, ate some dessert, and talked about a lot of stuff. I'm glad that we got to hang out again. So today ended pretty well. ^^
Today was my cousin's 13th bday. We had the families get together at my Grandma's house. The house was full. There was a shortage of chairs. lols. We all had hella good food and everyone was just hanging around the house talking.
I got to hang out with my cousin Nick. I haven't talked to him since New Years eve. We were going through some problems, but we resolved it today. I wouldn't hold a grudge against him. He's family, a second cousin. We hung out in the front porch, ate some dessert, and talked about a lot of stuff. I'm glad that we got to hang out again. So today ended pretty well. ^^
Publish Post
Friday, March 6, 2009
The Stress Factor
Don't push me cause I'm close to the edge. I'm trying not to lose my head. =(
Basic Idea
Many people see me as a peaceful and quiet guy that shows no emotion. The truth is, no one really understands what makes me happy, what upsets me, and what goes on in my life. I'm not too happy with how my life has been going lately. I have my reasons. I am thankful for many things, but I have missed many opportunities that I cannot change and there are many facts about myself that I am not comfortable with. I don't expect certain people to know what happens in my life, but many bad things have happened to me, and I have learned long ago that its best to keep your problems to yourself and not let anyone know whats wrong unless you have someone that you can talk to. I'd rather not tell certain people the drama that others try to project on me. All though I am open to hearing my friends vent to me. Its because I enjoy helping them and Ive been told plenty of times before that I give good advice.
411
Lately I've been having some issues with some friends of mines. I'd rather not put any names out. I don't feel comfortable around certain people anymore. Some call it the silent treatment. Normally when I'm silent, it means either I have nothing to say, I'm disappointed or annoyed, I'm not comfortable with something, or I'm just thinking to myself. It's best if people don't try to figure me out unless they're concerned.
In The Depths Of My Mind
It's just, sometimes (ever since high school ended) I feel like the people that I care for and take time to talk to, don't even care about how I feel. I know I can't expect them to. A lot of people show me low consideration. I am accustomed to checking up on old friends occasionally just to see how they are. Like am I showing all this effort for nothing? Some of people are happy to hear from me, some just talk for a bit, and others may not care too much, but at least I'm doing my part as a friend/acquaintance. That's all I need to feel like a good friend. When I say hi to people, I'm not expecting them to be all excited and happy to see me unless they really feel that way, but showing some gratitude would be nice. These kind of things use to not effect me, but I can't hold in my emotions for too long. I have feelings too like everyone else, but differently. I just choose not to show mines often. When someone that I care about does something small unintentionally to upset or make me feel bad, I normally keep it to myself and continue to treat them the way I normally do, but if they do something really bad that hurts my feelings, I'll just let them know what they did wrong. If they are sorry for what they did I'll forgive them, but if they can't realize how what they did was wrong even though they did not intentionally want to hurt me, that is something that makes me upset and there may be problems with me and the person afterwards. Even though people unintentionally make me feel bad, I don't let it change the way I feel about them unless I find out that they've done it on purpose. Like I said before, as long as I do my part as a friend or acquaintance, it makes me feel good as a person.
Mind Full Of Hatred
I am tired of people acting like I have no feelings. Like they can just completely ignore me and not care about how it makes me feel. I hate how I can easily feel ignored by certain people. I don't take it personally if we don't talk as much as we use to, and some people I don't have to worry about, because we talk a lot. Maybe I'm over-reacting because lately I've been having problems. Or maybe I'm finally expressing how I really feel after all these months of holding in my emotions. I've dealt with this plenty of times, but I guess I'm ready to put this to rest and not let it prevent me from getting on with my life.
Remedy
I choose not to vent to certain people because I don't want them to worry or feel bad for me, but if they would like to talk about it then I can open up the them. I can only open up to certain people. I mostly talk to John when I'm feeling down because he is my best friend and he understands what upsets me and what cheers me up. Amado has always taken time to hear me out whenever I was having problems with something, and he has came to me when he needed someone to talk to. Janelle was there for me when I had my heart broken from this girl that I use to like. I feel comfortable opening up to her if I need someone to talk to. April and I didn't start talking much until towards the end of high school and I already feel like I can trust her knowing about some of the things that can make me happy or upset me, because she's very easy for me to conversate with. I can also open up to Genaiya because she makes me feel good as a person, she accepts me for who I am, and she has vented to me before. Like I said in the beginning, I'd rather keep things to myself, but sometimes it helps you to feel better when you have someone to talk to. It calms my nerves and helps take my mind of the situation. Tobacco use to help me relax the mind, but I already quit. When I'm feeling bummed about something and want to be alone, I just take time to myself, lye down in my room and listen to some jazz or any type of soothing music. An excellent solution to relaxation.
Basic Idea
Many people see me as a peaceful and quiet guy that shows no emotion. The truth is, no one really understands what makes me happy, what upsets me, and what goes on in my life. I'm not too happy with how my life has been going lately. I have my reasons. I am thankful for many things, but I have missed many opportunities that I cannot change and there are many facts about myself that I am not comfortable with. I don't expect certain people to know what happens in my life, but many bad things have happened to me, and I have learned long ago that its best to keep your problems to yourself and not let anyone know whats wrong unless you have someone that you can talk to. I'd rather not tell certain people the drama that others try to project on me. All though I am open to hearing my friends vent to me. Its because I enjoy helping them and Ive been told plenty of times before that I give good advice.
411
Lately I've been having some issues with some friends of mines. I'd rather not put any names out. I don't feel comfortable around certain people anymore. Some call it the silent treatment. Normally when I'm silent, it means either I have nothing to say, I'm disappointed or annoyed, I'm not comfortable with something, or I'm just thinking to myself. It's best if people don't try to figure me out unless they're concerned.
In The Depths Of My Mind
It's just, sometimes (ever since high school ended) I feel like the people that I care for and take time to talk to, don't even care about how I feel. I know I can't expect them to. A lot of people show me low consideration. I am accustomed to checking up on old friends occasionally just to see how they are. Like am I showing all this effort for nothing? Some of people are happy to hear from me, some just talk for a bit, and others may not care too much, but at least I'm doing my part as a friend/acquaintance. That's all I need to feel like a good friend. When I say hi to people, I'm not expecting them to be all excited and happy to see me unless they really feel that way, but showing some gratitude would be nice. These kind of things use to not effect me, but I can't hold in my emotions for too long. I have feelings too like everyone else, but differently. I just choose not to show mines often. When someone that I care about does something small unintentionally to upset or make me feel bad, I normally keep it to myself and continue to treat them the way I normally do, but if they do something really bad that hurts my feelings, I'll just let them know what they did wrong. If they are sorry for what they did I'll forgive them, but if they can't realize how what they did was wrong even though they did not intentionally want to hurt me, that is something that makes me upset and there may be problems with me and the person afterwards. Even though people unintentionally make me feel bad, I don't let it change the way I feel about them unless I find out that they've done it on purpose. Like I said before, as long as I do my part as a friend or acquaintance, it makes me feel good as a person.
Mind Full Of Hatred
I am tired of people acting like I have no feelings. Like they can just completely ignore me and not care about how it makes me feel. I hate how I can easily feel ignored by certain people. I don't take it personally if we don't talk as much as we use to, and some people I don't have to worry about, because we talk a lot. Maybe I'm over-reacting because lately I've been having problems. Or maybe I'm finally expressing how I really feel after all these months of holding in my emotions. I've dealt with this plenty of times, but I guess I'm ready to put this to rest and not let it prevent me from getting on with my life.
Remedy
I choose not to vent to certain people because I don't want them to worry or feel bad for me, but if they would like to talk about it then I can open up the them. I can only open up to certain people. I mostly talk to John when I'm feeling down because he is my best friend and he understands what upsets me and what cheers me up. Amado has always taken time to hear me out whenever I was having problems with something, and he has came to me when he needed someone to talk to. Janelle was there for me when I had my heart broken from this girl that I use to like. I feel comfortable opening up to her if I need someone to talk to. April and I didn't start talking much until towards the end of high school and I already feel like I can trust her knowing about some of the things that can make me happy or upset me, because she's very easy for me to conversate with. I can also open up to Genaiya because she makes me feel good as a person, she accepts me for who I am, and she has vented to me before. Like I said in the beginning, I'd rather keep things to myself, but sometimes it helps you to feel better when you have someone to talk to. It calms my nerves and helps take my mind of the situation. Tobacco use to help me relax the mind, but I already quit. When I'm feeling bummed about something and want to be alone, I just take time to myself, lye down in my room and listen to some jazz or any type of soothing music. An excellent solution to relaxation.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Gingerbread Man
Its only been a few days since ash Wednesday and I'm already craving ice cream and Nicky slaps. lols. I wonder how long I can keep this up. Honestly, as a child I never really took the 40 days of lent seriously. I always ended up doing whatever I gave up during the 40 days. So this time I'm really trying to test myself. "Give it hope".
Instead of eating ice cream for dessert, I could probably just have some good pastries. Such as cookies (chips ahoy!, oreos, mrs. fields), donuts, muffins, cinnamon rolls, brownies, cake, pie (cherry, banana, pumpkin), strudel, all that good stuff. I'm not really acustomed to having dessert after a meal. I don't have a sweet tooth, but all that stuff is pretty awesome. =)
As for substituting Nicky slaps, as I've said before on one of my earlier blogs titled "I'm A Junkie", It explains how I am really into music and many different type of Genres. Different artists, bands, DJ's, groups, and many more than I can't even name out.
Instead of eating ice cream for dessert, I could probably just have some good pastries. Such as cookies (chips ahoy!, oreos, mrs. fields), donuts, muffins, cinnamon rolls, brownies, cake, pie (cherry, banana, pumpkin), strudel, all that good stuff. I'm not really acustomed to having dessert after a meal. I don't have a sweet tooth, but all that stuff is pretty awesome. =)
As for substituting Nicky slaps, as I've said before on one of my earlier blogs titled "I'm A Junkie", It explains how I am really into music and many different type of Genres. Different artists, bands, DJ's, groups, and many more than I can't even name out.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Lent
I'm 6 days late for lent! I was told that it starts after Easter, but I'm guessing that it ends on Easter Sunday. I've decided to give up 2 things. 40 days without Ice Cream, my favorite dessert that I can't deny and Nicky Slaps, songs by my favorite rapper. Starting TODAY.
Btw my phone is active again.
Btw my phone is active again.
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